Diary of a God Girl

…eat slow, take small bites

The Food Coloring

Out of nowhere, bricks slam into face and I am flattened by the hard reality that I will never see my mother on earth again.  Tears rise from pain deep spilling over water line and I stop in the mi…

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The Food Coloring

Out of nowhere, bricks slam into face and I am flattened by the hard reality that I will never see my mother on earth again.  Tears rise from pain deep spilling over water line and I stop in the middle of aisle four in front of the food coloring.

My mother made the Christmas cookies every year for us six kids.  It’s all about the perfect amount of almond extract that made the green and red Christmas trees taste like only my mother could make them taste.

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Under an umbrella of ‘White Christmas’ blaring through the store speakers, I stand in front of the sprinkles and the cookie cutters and empty heart tears into hands of God hoping no one will see me break.

I. AM. BREAKING.

In the company of carts filled with milk and Cheerios, I break.  In the middle of holiday food planning and gift giving, I break.  In the presence of strangers staring into strange girl’s teary eyes, I break.  There is no, “Girl…?  Are you ok?”  None of it.  There is just torn heart skin hanging loose begging for time to bring the healing.

I break an egg and add the sugar and I get to mixing the thing that breaks my heart and holds it together.

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I am bound to my mother’s love.

We were like a Christmas card, all of us kids, on our knees in the kitchen chairs.  How we’d lean into the perfect trees on the cookie sheets waiting for the cleaning of the bowl with our fingertips.  And when we thought she wasn’t looking we’d sneak a clump of sweet into our mouths.  But she always knew because a mother always knows when her love goes out.

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I could never get the Christmas trees to look as perfect as she did.  My mother had a special touch.  She always knew just how hard to hold on to anything and just when to let go soft.  My mother held grace in her hands.  How, through the years, she held my broken things in her arms and put me back together and let me go like a gift. 

I was my mother’s gift. 

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Jesus broke into God’s arms.

And so, I hope with heart weak and feet like cement and say, “God, I can’t do this alone.  I can’t do this no mother thing if You don’t help me do this and if You don’t hold me through this.”  With flour and sugar in arms, I say,  “I need You to hold me now while I break into the fullness of who You are.   Move me slow away from this moment so I can move into the rest of the day that You made for me to live in and be glad in.”

We walk slow, me and God, to the register and out to the car and we drive back home.  I put the food coloring in the kitchen cabinet and I don’t even know if I can make them this year.  I think I may have just wasted a good four dollars and thirty-seven cents.

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Though this season my merry is less, in my suffering, my Christ is more and soon, I have to believe, there will be good to come even in the loss of my mother’s love.

“And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love Him who have been called according to His purpose.” Romans 8:28

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There are no walls at my church. 

Only room to grow upward and outward and inward toward Him.   Only open space to reach higher and wider and deeper into the love of the only One worth loving and learning from, the only One worth holding onto to the end, the only One worth risking it all because He gave it all to and for us.

There are no walls at my church.

Only Holy Spirit anointing that falls fiercely on that preacher’s ears for the kind of gospel preaching that seeps deep into the spirit pores of all of us sitting in those red seats. 

There are no walls at my church. 

Only songs of praise that rise high past that rooftop weathervane to heaven’s floor and unlatches the pearly lock that releases the ladder of our faith so angels can minister all around us.

There are no walls at my church. 

Only praying hands that reach out beyond every measure of difficulty and impossibility set by man and grabs hold of every miraculous provision possible because everything is possible. 

There are no walls at my church. 

Only eyes to see beyond the boundaries we set for ourselves.  Only ears to hear the voice of truth that cuts up dirty lies and crushes them back where they belong, under our boots.

There are no walls at my church.

Only foundation of hope for the jumping up and down all the way to the north and the south of our hearts and the east and the west of our hearts in courage and strength and brave passion because His perfect love punches all the fear out of holy way.

There are no walls at my church.

Only freedom that breaks into imprisoned earth ball and shakes it crazy with love from the only One who has and is and will forever change the face of this world.

There are no walls at my church.

Only TRUE light that shines down on every broken thing so every heart can be healed and whole…, so every heart can follow the only way to go.

There are no walls at my church.

Only Jesus.

 

 

 

 

 

Israel, Syria, NWO, Russia – Bible Prophecy Update

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I Had A Dream

I had a dream early July 2015.

It was summertime and I walked over to my neighbor’s house in search of something.  There was a party going on in the front yard.  Many were eating and drinking and having a good time.  I couldn’t seem to get anyone’s attention to help me find what I was looking for so I walked into the house through the front door and began my search.  I made my way through the living room, into the kitchen and opened the back door and saw that it was snowing.

It was snowing in the middle of the summer!

I looked to the left and Jesus was standing in a white robe, glowing, with His hands stretched out and a smile on His face.

“His appearance was like lightning, and his clothing white as snow.” (Matthew 28:3)

In shock and excitement, I slammed the back door shut, ran back through the house and flung open the front door, where the party was going on and shouted, “It’s snowing in the summer and JESUS IS HERE!”

No response.

Again, I shouted louder, “You guys, it’s snowing in July! Jesus is here!  He is in the backyard!

Everyone looked at me unamazed and continued to party.

I ran back into the house and an earthquake began to shake its foundation.  I sat down with a little girl in a narrow hallway that was like a tunnel.  We sat side by side on upside down Frisbees.  As we were moving through the tunnel the little girl asked, “Where are we going?”

I said, “It’s OK.  We’re going to heaven!

Two weeks after my dream a friend said to me, “The weather is crazy…, it’s summer and it just snowed?!  After I did some research I found it snowed in Utah, Montana and Hawaii in the month of July 2015.

Jesus tells us in Matthew 24:36-41, “No one knows about that day or hour, not even the angels in heaven, nor the Son, but only the Father. As it was in the days of Noah, so it will be at the coming of the Son of Man.  For in the days before the flood, people were eating and drinking, marrying and giving in marriage, up to the day Noah entered the ark; and they knew nothing about what would happen until the flood came and took them away.  That is how it will be at the coming of the Son of Man.  Two men will be in the field; one will be taken and the other left.  Two women will be grinding with a hand mill; one will be taken and the other left.”

THE SECOND COMING OF JESUS IS AROUND THE CORNER.

I am not a dream interpreter but I would like to suggest a couple of things.  Not only did God give me a dream that it was snowing in the middle of the summer but in reality it actually happened.  Could it be God is trying to get our attention by sending snow in the middle of the summer months, unlike snow that we expect in the middle of the winter months?  Could it be, in these last days, God is showing us the contrast between dark and light?  In the Bible, God refers to our sin as being like ‘crimson red’ before becoming ‘white as snow’ after we receive Jesus as our Lord and are cleansed by His blood.

“Come now, and let us reason together,” Says the LORD, “Though your sins are as scarlet, They will be as white as snow; Though they are red like crimson, They will be like wool. (Isaiah 1:18)

Could it be that snow symbolizes God’s purity and His holy whiteness against a backdrop of ungodliness and sin that is sweeping across America?  Is it possible God wants to bring attention to our sin apart from the light of His forgiveness?

Jesus is your only chance for an entry way into heaven.

Today, Jesus is standing in your backyard with His arms open wide waiting for you to receive Him.  Will you open the front door or the back door or the side door or the garage door and let Him into your heart?  Even the smallest crack in your bedroom window is enough for Him to shine His True Light into the darkness of your fear and depression and anxiety and unbelief and hopelessness and sexual immorality and perversion and deception and drunkenness and addiction and anger and bitterness and loneliness and brokenness and shame and unforgiveness and jealousy and divisiveness and hatred and greed and arrogance and self-righteousness.  Will you let God into your black and your white and your blue?  Will you let God into your Biblical ignorance?

It is time for harvest all over the world.

“Like the cold of snow in the time of harvest is a faithful messenger to those who send him, for he refreshes the soul of his masters.” (Proverbs 25:13)

I am just a messenger so don’t get mad at me if you don’t like the WORD I speak.  Get mad at God, He is happy and pleased even, to take your ‘mad’ away.

Jesus says it this way, “Whoever listens to you, listens to Me, whoever rejects you, rejects Me; but whoever rejects Me, rejects the One who sent Me”.  (Luke 10:16)

So, will you stop for one minute in the midst of the drinking and eating and marrying at your party and consider the ‘days of Noah’ that we are in?  Are you ready to accept Jesus today, right now?  Soon, God’s patience will run out as Peter tells us, “The Lord is not slow in keeping his promise, as some understand slowness. He is patient with you, not wanting anyone to perish, but everyone to come to repentance.  But the day of the Lord will come like a thief.  (2 Peter 3:9-10)

There will come a day of judgement when we will all have to stand before the God who made us and all creation.  If you reject Him you will have to tell Him why you were right and He was wrong.  Believe me, you won’t want to be you on that day!

So…, will you join me and the little girl on our way to heaven?

Here is a prayer you can pray that will reserve a place for you at the greatest banquet party of all time in heaven:

 Father God, I acknowledge that Jesus is Your Son and that when He died on the cross, He had my sins past, present and future, in His body.  Please, forgive me of my sins and come into my heart and be my Lord and Savior. Fill me with the Holy Spirit and guide me from this moment on in the Way that I should go.  In the Name of Jesus.  Amen.

If you said this prayer, please let me know by FB or you can email me at: damirante226@gmail.com.  I would like to send you a package!

I love you and so does God.

 

 

The Pond

Diary of a God Girl

“Fill me with Your Holy Spirit, I said, and lead me throughout the day.”

I have been working on some writing projects and felt led to go to a particular coffee house. I got my drink and set computer up with plug in wall.  I propped my boots up on chair across table, unloaded notes and opened Bible.

I get to writing.

No sooner am I all settled in and comfy, ready to spit out words from crazy head, does it become freezing in the place.   I think, surely they will turn the air off or at least turn it down.

Words froze in head.

It is unusually cold to the point that I could not even concentrate on the spelling of a word let alone the writing of a word.

I gather stuff up and head for car.  I sit before steering wheel in parking lot.

“In all your…

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The Pond

“Fill me with Your Holy Spirit, I said, and lead me throughout the day.”

I have been working on some writing projects and felt led to go to a particular coffee house. I got my drink and set computer up with plug in wall.  I propped my boots up on chair across table, unloaded notes and opened Bible.

I get to writing.

No sooner am I all settled in and comfy, ready to spit out words from crazy head, does it become freezing in the place.   I think, surely they will turn the air off or at least turn it down.

Words froze in head.

It is unusually cold to the point that I could not even concentrate on the spelling of a word let alone the writing of a word.

I gather stuff up and head for car.  I sit before steering wheel in parking lot.

“In all your ways acknowledge Him, and He shall direct your paths.”  Proverbs 3:6 NKJV

I wait for Holy Spirit to lead the way.

I say, “God, I suppose You have a better place for me to sit and write today?  Where would You have me go?”

I wait patiently.

I watch a bird peck on the gravel.

I watch traffic light turn red and green and yellow several times.

I sip coffee.

Then, it was clear, “Go to the pond.”

I head for the pond.

As I pull up, I see a woman sitting in the same seat I always sit in. “God, I say, not only will I not be at peace to write but someone is sitting in my seat! There’s a woman in my seat! Surely, You meant for me to go somewhere else?!”

I don’t give leaving one thought because the peace I did have assured me that I was in the very place God wanted me to be. I grab coffee and computer and Bible and notes and get out of car. I take a seat opposite woman sitting in my seat.

I say to woman, “I thought I was the only person who discovered this place.”

“No, she said, I come here all the time.

“I love it here.”, I say.  Funny, I thought to myself, I come here all the time too and I never saw woman here.

God was up to something.

I begin to gather words in brain hoping to bind them up in a book one day.  Yup, a book about how God’s Truth saved a messed up me.   Little did I know, I was about to have a one on one with the very woman sitting in my seat.

It was the geese that got us talking, all the and flapping and squawking out there on the water had us laughing hard, our bottoms bubbling up in our cushioned seats.

Woman begins to ask questions about life and Nashville rent and what I am up to. I tell her, “I am working on writing my first book.  I have to share my story and the Gospel of Jesus to all who will listen from a heart that has been put back together with a scissor and some tape.”

She laughs and says, “You’re talking about the Bible, and I am an atheist.”

God is funny.

“So, what do you believe in?”, I asked.

“I believe in science, woman said.  The Bible is just made up stories especially, the virgin birth. I try to believe it but science keeps getting in the way.  I don’t believe in God and I don’t believe in the Devil. If I believed in one I would have to believe in the other. I don’t believe in heaven or hell. I don’t believe God even exists, so, I don’t believe he created the universe. I feel as if we are used as pawns between God and the Devil. And what about the books that were left out of the Bible? And Moses…, there is no proof he even exists???”

Not only couldn’t I believe what I was hearing, I didn’t believe what I was hearing.

God sent a Born-Again Christian to speak to an atheist.

Woman and I spoke for over 2 hours. I told her about the devil’s plan for her life opposed to  God’s plan for her life. I talked about why Lucifer’s pride got him thrown out of heaven and how he is trying to deceive her into believing that God doesn’t exist so he could win her over to get back at God.  We covered archeology and Adam and Eve and Noah and Biblical history etc. I told her who Jesus was, why God sent Him  and what that meant for her.  We played word-catch gently back and forth in love and compassion.

Woman was empty, lost, lonely, deceived, depressed, angry and full of hopelessness.

It all came down to two things; her faith and her spiritual life.  She had no faith and she had no spiritual life.  I explained the need for her to be born again so the Holy Spirit, the only true spirit, could come alive inside her and lead her into the light of truth about who God is and who she is in Him.

God sent taped-up-heart-girl full of Jesus love to woman so He could tell her the truth about how much she means to Him. 

God never gives up on us, we give up on Him.

It was getting late.  Woman reached for her phone and put her binoculars around her neck. I knew I couldn’t let woman leave without asking her one question.

Determined to fulfill God’s call for the day, I asked plainly, “Before you leave, can I pray with you?”

With no hesitation, woman said, “Yes”, and in that moment, I swear I saw woman’s heart door open just enough for God hope light to slip in.

God led me to an atheist who wanted me to pray for her.

I moved over to where woman was sitting and I held her cold hands tight.  I bowed my head at the forgiving feet of Jesus while the Holy Spirit moved deep.   I prayed salvation for the woman who was sitting in my seat at the pond where God led me to.

I said, “In Jesus Name, Amen.”

Woman said, “You’re a very sweet person.”

“I don’t mean to be sweet, I said, I mean to tell you the Truth so you can be set free from the lies that you believe”.

I am not the first person God put in woman’s life to tell her about why He had to send Jesus to die for her, but what is I am the last?

God is after Marie.  Marie, that is her name.

With voice cracking and salt about to spill over water-line, I said, “God led me to you today because you were on God’s mind and God was on my mind. I love you and I want to see you in heaven.  You were God’s divine appointment for me today.”

The fact that Marie was trying so hard to disprove that God exists actually proves He indeed does exist.  The fact that Marie couldn’t understand why bad things happen in peoples lives and in the world proves that God is God and we are not.  God made all of us with a spiritual hole inside that needs to be filled and until we ask God to fill that hole with the Holy Spirit through accepting Jesus Christ as our Lord and Savior we will never be satisfied.

Marie is on my prayer list now and every morning I declare her salvation to God.  I believe God’s will, will be done in her life.

I pray we all humble ourselves and come to Him with childlike faith so we can learn the greatest glory lessons of life.

“He has made everything beautiful in it’s time.  He has also set eternity in the human hearts of men;  yet they cannot fathom what God has done from beginning to end.”  Eccleciastes 3:11

 

 

A Prayer For You

I have had a sense of urgency to share this message with you for the last few months. In all humility, please take these words to heart and share with all you know.

We are headed for the most evil of times on earth. God is setting the stage in the Middle East for the last seven biblically prophetic years to begin, the Tribulation, the last week of Daniels 70 weeks prophecy.

It is time  for you to decide where you will be spending eternity.

First, let’s get one thing straight.

“All scripture is breathed out by God and profitable for teaching, for reproof, for correction, and for training in righteousness.”  2 Timothy 3:16

“For prophecy never had its origin in the human will, but prophets, though human, spoke from God as they were carried along by the Holy Spirit.”  2 Peter 1:21

– It’s not about my truth or your truth. It’s about God’s truth.

– God’s truth is His living word, the Bible.

Now, let’s move on.

If I had one last chance to say one last thing before I met Jesus in the clouds, I would say this to anyone and everyone who thinks they don’t need Jesus to save them;

Jesus is on His way.

“Christ was sacrificed once to take away the sins of many people; and he will appear a second time, not to bear sin, but to bring salvation to those who are waiting for him.” (those who have received Him as Lord and Savior) Hebrews 9:28

Please, stop standing with your backs to the cross and your arms folded with every ‘right’ you think you have to keep your distance from God. God knows how you feel. Turn around and look at Jesus, hammered into splintered wood, hanging there all cut up and mangled with your sin bleeding out of His body. Look into His eyes, full of pain, forgiving you for rejecting Him all this time, when everything He did was for you in the first place, so your sins would be forgiven.

Jesus died on purpose.

When Jesus died on the cross he had our sin in His body.  Your’s and mine.

All. Of. It.

Because our sin separates us from God, God had to turn His back on Jesus so His plan of redemption would be complete.

Behold, the Lord’s hand is not shortened, that it cannot save, or his ear dull, that it cannot hear; but your iniquities have made a separation between you and your God, and your sins have hidden his face from you so that he does not hear. Isaiah 59:1-2

“If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just and will forgive us our sins and purify us from all unrighteousness.” 1 John 1:9

When Jesus cried out, “My God, My God, why have you forsaken me?” Matthew 27:46, I wonder if He really thought God would un-nail Him from that cross and save Him from his own death?   But God didn’t save Jesus from the cross; instead, God saved you and me through the sacrifice of His only Son.

“For God so loved the world, that he gave his only Son, that whoever believes in him should not perish but have eternal life. John 3:16

Jesus knew He had to die to save the world from sin.

 The moment Jesus took His last breath and died, the curtain of the temple was torn, like Jesus body, from top to bottom making a way into the presence of God. This is why Jesus is the only way to God and it is only by His blood that we are forgiven today.

 Do not be deceived, there is no other way.  NONE.

“And there is salvation in no one else, for there is no other name under heaven given among men by which we must be saved.” Acts 4:12

“For there is one God, and there is one mediator between God and men, the man Christ Jesus.” 2 Timothy 2:5

Jesus said to him, “I am the way, and the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me. John 14:6

I am the door. If anyone enters by me, he will be saved and will go in and out and find pasture.” John 10:9

Christianity is not exclusive of anyone.  NO-ONE. There is not one person that Jesus did not die for, not one heterosexual and not one homosexual.  In fact, it is the exact opposite – people exclude Jesus from their lives and not the other way around.

“…God our Savior who wants all men to be saved and to come to a knowledge of the truth. For there is one God and one mediator between God and men, the man Christ Jesus who gave Himself as a ransom for all men…” 1 Timothy 2:3-6

We are all guilty of sin and God is very clear on what sin is.

 “Here is a trustworthy saying that deserves full acceptance: Christ Jesus came into the world to save sinners—of whom I am the worst.” 1 Timothy 1:15

Paul says he is the worst sinner of all time, but I look back on my life and I think I am the worst one.  It is only by the grace of God that I was forgiven.

God warns us before He judges us giving us the chance to humble ourselves, to turn from our sin and come to Him for forgiving grace. There will come a day, however, if after we refuse Him long enough, He will give us over to our sinful ways.

“For if we go on sinning willfully after receiving the knowledge of the truth, there no longer remains a sacrifice for sins,..” Hebrews 10:26

 Jesus will not return and rapture all who believe in Him until every person in the world will have had the chance to repent of their sin and receive Him as Lord and Savior.

“For since the creation of the world His invisible attributes, His eternal power and divine nature, have been clearly seen, being understood through what has been made, so that they are without excuse.” Romans 1:20

“But do not forget this one thing, dear friends: With the Lord a day is like a thousand years, and a thousand years are like a day. The Lord is not slow in keeping his promise, as some understand slowness. He is patient with you, not wanting anyone to perish, but everyone to come to repentance. But the day of the Lord will come like a thief. The heavens will disappear with a roar; the elements will be destroyed by fire, and the earth and everything in it will be laid bare.” 2 Peter 3:8-10

If you reject Him, He will reject you.

So everyone who acknowledges me before men, I also will acknowledge before my Father who is in heaven, but whoever denies me before men, I also will deny before my Father who is in heaven. Matthew 10:32,33

Jesus was crucified with two thieves, one on His right and one of His left. One spit in Jesus face and said if you are really who you say you are then save us! The other thief rebuked that thief and confessed his sin saying, “…we are getting what we deserve for our deeds. But this man has done nothing wrong.” Luke 23:41

Then he asked Jesus to remember him in heaven.

“Jesus answered him, “I tell you the truth, today you will be with me in paradise.” Luke 23:43

Jesus answered him, “Truly, truly, I say to you, unless one is born again he cannot see the kingdom of God.” John 3:3

The choice is yours to make.

Please, don’t get in the way of God’s plan to save you through Jesus with all of your questions. All of the answers are in the most prophetic book of all time, The Bible, that is being fulfilled before our eyes today, believe me!

Satan’s pride was his downfall. Don’t let your pride kick you out of heaven.

Come as you are. When you ask Jesus into your heart, He will become alive in you spiritually through the Holy Spirit who will guide you into all truth. You will feel like you have been born a second time, born in the spirit, thus, you will be ‘born again.’

I want you to meet Jesus up in the clouds with me.  You don’t want to be left behind by not accepting Jesus.

Here is a prayer you can pray to receive Jesus today:

God, I acknowledge that You sent Jesus to die in my place. Please, forgive me of my sins. Jesus, today, I ask you to come into my heart to be my Lord and Savior. From this moment, I ask that you fill me with the Holy Spirit and lead me in the way that You have for my life, through Your Son, Jesus Christ. Thank you for preparing a place for me in heaven! Amen.

If you said this prayer, please let me know on Facebook and email me at damirante226@gmail.com.

I would like to be available to pray with you anytime and send you the best selling book of all time, The Holy Bible!

XOXO

Denise Amirante

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The Lord’s Prayer

I am inviting you to join me in saying, The Lord’s Prayer for 40 days.   Beginning Aug, 5th thru Sept. 13th, I will be praying, the ‘prayer we ought to pray’, 3 times each day at 9am, 1pm and 5pm. It’s easy, just set a reminder on your smartphone and wherever you are, stop what you’re doing and join in once or 3 times each day, out-loud or under your breath. I believe we are living in the end times and I believe God is moving sovereignly and swiftly among us. With no reference to ‘me’ or ‘I’, The Lord’s Prayer is the perfect prayer to pray, for ‘us’ as a people and ‘U.S.’ as a nation. Let’s keep our lives in check while bowing our hearts together to God Almighty. Let’s watch the Holy Spirit of Truth move in the lives of believer’s, and unbeliever’s. Let’s awaken the heartland of a nation whose reverence for God has fallen fast away from the very foundation in which it was built upon, the rock of salvation, Jesus Christ!

 

THE LORD’S PRAYER

Our Father who art in heaven,

hallowed be Thy name.

Thy kingdom come.

Thy will be done

on earth as it is in heaven.

Give us this day our daily bread,

and forgive us our trespasses,

as we forgive those who trespass against us,

and lead us not into temptation,

but deliver us from evil.

For Thine is the kingdom,

and the power, and the glory,

for ever and ever.

Amen.

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